According to ‘Supernatural’ Folklore ‘Cross Roads Demons’ are entities that make formal agreements or bargains with humans, granting any wish in exchange for claiming their life and soul at a fixed point in the future and are generally summoned by burying a container of ritual items, including a photograph of the summoner, graveyard dirt, a black cat bone, and possibly yarrow at the center of a crossroads. Very random I know…… but this is the first thing that crossed my mind when I started thinking of crossroads, which brings me back to the actual point, which is the metaphorical demon also known as the “cross road”……..
It’s like; just when you think that you’ve finally got a firm grip on that thing called life and you actually come up with – wait for it – “a plausible plan”, then Bam!, you hit a crossroad that has an equally enticing offer on the other end. That’s when everything falls apart again… ok now I’m being a tad overdramatic…… but cross roads do end up making you question and rethink everything you are doing…..
My cross road at the moment is the choice between doing what is expected of me or what I’ve always dreamed of doing even though it might not bring out the results I want….. Which brings me to my dilemma….. In Sri Lanka since the culture basically revolves around the family unit and since in my case my parents are still financially setting me up, the issue at hand is - should I take the route they want me to take and live the “perfect life” in a dream job that could secure my future and settle down comfortably in SL? Or should I just chuck it all and go for what my gut is telling me to, which is to get out, travel for a while and go to the land down under in pursuit of higher studies (and other things :P) regardless of the consequences?
I was chatting to an old friend today over an iced tea and a hot chocolate, when we started talking about where we thought we would be today if our daydreams had come true…… and believe me when I tell you that we both are a trillion miles away from those blissful dreams of our younger days….. and not in a good way either!!!! This got me thinking – shouldn’t we go for our dreams while we are still young even though we may crash and burn in the process? At almost a quarter century old I’m definitely not getting any younger and pretty soon whether I like it or not I’m gonna have to start thinking of that “dreaded M word” (marriage :S) and settling down in life….. so isn’t this the time to lay it all on the line and just go for it……
But on the other hand am I being selfish in only thinking of what I want??? Shouldn’t I think of what my parents want me to be…. After all they are the ones who brought me up for all of my life, so shouldn’t I buck up and do what they want… because let’s face it, they aren’t getting any younger either and aren’t going to be totally financially independent forever….so shouldn’t I work towards providing some sort of security for them as well?? Maybe I should take the job because it is a really really good one, that I know I could end up enjoying and they are right in saying that I might not get as golden an opportunity as this one (coz there are people who would kill for this job)!!!!
Which brings me back to the crossroads and at the moment I would gladly make a deal with a crossroads demon to make this choice for me…. But life wouldn’t be the ride it is and not even an ounce as fun if everything came easy….
So off I go to figure things out once again… maybe I should just flip a coin and see what happens!!!!! xoxo
While reading your view on the facts related to the crossroad decision that you have to make, the only advice this 'old' (sniff..) friend has for you is that you are the one who should decide for YOU now. Like you have said in your first blog... you kicked a** in academics because you felt you owed it to your folks {different wording of course :p}. Time to make your move based on what you need. Focus on the place where your mind meets your heart. Delete, get rid of, dispose of, erase, clear any other factor involved. Speak to your heart and tell it to tell God to help you, then you will tell yourself what should be done... from there it's all about moving forward and not second guessing yourself. Never, ever, doubt your decision... because in a matter that you had to ponder from within yourself.. the only one that can judge the right from wrong is YOU!
ReplyDeleteSo all I can say from my end is sit tight, move forward, jump up like an idiot, wiggle like crazy, let out a howling teary cry and then smile widely because... life ain't waiting for nobody... it keeps going and gooiinngg and gggoooooiiiiinnnnggggg and then suddenly, G-O-N-E!
Love you =)
IAC